I recently walked into a meeting room where about 100 people were gathering for a conference. Even though I had been invited to the gathering and even though my friend was hosting it, I still had to face a momentary feeling of insecurity. Where was my seat? Was there a place for me? I've had this feeling a million times in my life.
I still feel it a bit when I board an airplane and look down the long aisle. Ticket in hand and seat reserved, I still have butterflies in the pit of my stomach. Where's my seat? Who will I sit near? Will someone else have taken my place?
I also feel this way the first time I attend a new life group. It's pretty intimidating to pull up to someone else's home and invite yourself into their living room. Getting from the car to the living room can seem insurmountable.
Recently we relocated office buildings at work. I was so grateful when my boss opened up his computer to show me the schematic with each person's work space clearly marked by their name. Surprise! There was a space for me.
These momentary flashes of insecurity are easily resolved.
Once we press past the threat of the potential embarrassment of being overlooked or left out and actually "find our place", the sensation passes.
But sometimes this sensation becomes an ongoing state of being.
That's a problem. A big one.
Deep seated insecurity, the kind that leaves you fearful, restless and uncertain, requires the human heart to live on alert.
"Will I be good enough for the job or the relationship?”
“Will I be accepted by this group or that person?
“Am I too tall, too short, too skinny, too fat?”
These examples can be shortened to the real questions of our heart.
"Am I enough?"
"Will I be accepted?"
"Am I okay?"
Meditate on this wonderful verse from the book of Jude and ponder the fact that we are loved and "kept safe" by Jesus. He is the answer to our insecurities.
Jude 1-2 I, Jude, am a slave to Jesus Christ and brother to James, writing to those loved by God the Father, called and kept safe by Jesus Christ. Relax, everything’s going to be all right; rest, everything’s coming together; open your hearts, love is on the way!